The Paradox Called life

There are many things that you never get time to think of and when you force yourself to think of them, you get more confused, unclear, and disoriented and yet enlightened at the same time.

Well that's something I realized recently or long before not even I am sure of.

I was just thinking how our lives have been. Living our lives in a way that others wanted us to live.As far as I am concerned I wanted to live my life in a particular fashion but here I am living a totally opposite life. A life that some people think is good enough, wish I could also share the same view. At times it feels that life is taking life out of you.

The more I want it to get better the worse it gets, the decisions that you make for the long term turn out to be the ones you regret most. At times things make you feel so small, the inability to make your life change makes you feel so vulnerable.

The question that crops up in mind is .. "Is your life really yours ? " and the answer to it has till now eluded me.

KIT Final Year - The end of reign

The years went by and the final year came and brought with it the carefree attitude we were the kings. With a job already secured there wasn't anything in the world that could hold us down. The parties never stopped and mood was always good. The time went by exams were just a formality everything went on smoothly, till the  few months of the college remained. The very thought of leaving my KIT family sent shivers to our spines , loosing friends who became your lifeline, who were always there when you needed them, it was dreadful even to think of what life was going to be without them. Finally the farewell party came to officially mark the end of our course, just a few exams and it would be good bye college life at least for that time. The party was fab and all the efforts all the determination of not to cry during farewell, were all in vain and once started tears were difficult to stop and I cried like a baby. The promises to stay in touch , of those yearly trip to Goa, of not letting anything to change our friendship were made and after that everything ended, people became involved with their jobs. I went back home to wait for my joining date and similarly others moved on with their lives, the phone calls became less frequent, the desire to meet diminished and all the effort to get a job in bangalore or get the joining in bangalore went in vain as finally I was asked to join Noida instead and I never knew how was it going to effect my life and future.
With the end of college the initiation to the real life became and we all became busy ... the first chance I got to visit bangalore was after 3 years in 2010 and really it was fun to be with the guys I loved so much and missed so much but as they say good times dont last long.

What happened with my job and professional life is a completely different story :)

KIT 3rd Year

The inevitable happened and we came back from home. Rather rushed back from home even before the scheduled time of opening.

The semester opening were always eventful with some coming early and some coming late bringing in treats from home which they never got to eat.

This was the year when we came on our own. We were the people of our own will and felt nothing could make us do what we didn't want to. The trips to classrooms became more and more sparse and time spent on "Malli Shop" increased exponentially. The 4th Semester was marked with bullying lecturers to get our way with them, trying micro Xerox to get good marks in internals, trying to get the papers before hand escaping the mechanical block through the tennis court to escape from the principal and many more.

This was the year in which the campus placements had to start, being in mechanical engineering we had very limited options and only few companies allowed it. However as luck would have it the first company that came to campus allowed mechanical engineering students to sit for the placement and guess what me and my good friend Bips got through (Though I regret the same now). After campus life became cool and no classes nothing and it was parties all the way along till the year got over. People would come happy or sad from various interviews but as u have it they can never be in bad mood with good friends around.

One of the things that I remember is that this was the year when the college decided not to sponsor the football team for the VTU tournament. Left with know option I tried my hand on cricket and to my surprise even after all these years I was good enough to get through. We also tried to organize the college fest on our own but that ended up badly with seniors taking over. This was the time I made some new friends through various modes. People who were complete strangers but became very close. Lot of time spent on gossips on cellphone and chatting on social networking sites and it was fun. Me and Rajesh were really active on social networking sites and were infamous for the same.

This semester also ended with me being relieved from the tension of job search and went home looking forward for the final and last year of Engineering. This was the time we all started feeling a bit bored and wanted things to end soon only later we would realize how stupid we were.

One of the other memorable event of this year was our unplanned trip to Goa.

Actually what happened was every department was going for a outing except mechanical engineering as there were no girls there, no one was really interested in going out.
It all started on the day the CS people were scheduled to go to Goa for the outing and we were out Me, KK   and some other people sitting and discussing how much fun these people were going to have, in between someone suggested why cant we go by ourselves to Goa and have fun. The list of probable candidates who may join us was made then and there. It was decided we can leave by 10:30 PM train in about 3 hours from the current time. We went to hostel and started gathering people some of the people from CS withdrew from the official trip to join us and it came to around 28 people joining us for the trip. We didn't plan earlier so had to go by general coach in the train and we hardly slept. After train we had to change and then reached Goa in the next day morning. We roamed around a bit and then went for cruise that day and spent the next day visiting famous places. In the evening we had to return, but I was so much happy to be there that I declared I am not going back and will be staying even if I had to stay alone and finally was able to convince some 10 people to stay back with us we stayed two more days and had much more fun than the last two days. This Goa trip left us craving for more and we decided that we needed to return to Goa very soon.

KIT Second year

Here I am back yet again to continue writing about my life at college

The first year went by and I made some really good friends with ragging over people started trusting each other a bit more, those little arguments over nothing, those gossips at tea stalls, the weekends visits to KC were all so much fun.

In my first year I thought I would be ragging my juniors a lot but as things are we didn't have many juniors and at the end of it I was not even in the mood for it.

Studies in second year took a back seat and fun took the driver's. We enjoyed a lot there were lot of things that kept on happening. The cricket matches everyday evening and weekends kept us fresh and away from boredom.

The eventful thing of the second year has to be the organisation of freshers party for our juniors. It took a lot there was some misunderstanding with the seniors and there was a large rift and it seemed quite possible that seniors may not even join in the party. However in the end everything was sorted out and it was done in a grand was. We also got our internals postponed for the same, thanks to the awesome mechanical engineering faculty.

The days went on and it was year end and to our surprise we didn't even want to go home. It seemed the college and hostel became our shell. It became a place where we found peace and solace. It was a place where I felt free from the burden of life (realized at a later stage in Life).

I got my first and only backlog in this year and that too in a paper I was very confident so much that I came out in 2.5 hrs only and thought I am going to pass easily but thanks to the magical marking scheme of VTU(Very Tough University) the results were a shock to most of us as more than 2/3 of the class flunked.
The effort it took for giving and preparing for three papers back to back was nothing short of Herculean and left me drained. The more the degree progressed the more laid back and stress free we became in life.
We felt like kings with nothing to worry about.

This was also the time when I started reading a lot, I started reading anything and everything I can get my hands onto and this habit was something that has helped me a lot improving my vocabulary, reading speed, appreciation of language and not to mention the comfort level with the language.

This year also I went with the football team for VTU Bangalore Zone tournament and again we got a drubbing against a not very good team thanks to some sloppy display by my seniors.

Finally time came for the last exam of the 2nd year and to go home.

Bye Bye Guys

As promised this is for all of you who made my stay at Evalueserve very special.

Paras Kumar fondly called as ‘Papa’ has been always been there for me to support both on the professional and personal front. He was the one who mentored me and taught me the tricks of the trade often stretching for whole night while making us leave on time. There were times when I messed up but he never lost his composure always told me to remain calm in tense situation (Trying to do so). There has been so much to learn from him. Thanks for all the support and believe you have shown in me, hope I have not let you down.

Tara Prasad the first friend I made in Evalueserve and probably the best. Life at office would have been much different without him. First I would have not gained so much weight. He is the main culprit behind it. A lovable guy and a genius “Gold Medallist” to be exact. He is the emotional type and family guy. Have worked with him on many projects and enjoyed them a lot. My first training brief was taken by him. He is a person who knows almost about everything and has interest in almost everything don’t have any idea how he manages to do that. The dedication with he worked was a source of inspiration for us and everybody in our team wants to be like him. Hope that we remain friends for ever will need your support and advice.

Ankur Yadav the dude of our team with his own way of thinking on almost everything. He always thinks about things differently,away from the way normal people do and has logic to convince you on his thought. He also posses great sense of humour and things can never be dull if you have him around. The way he balanced his professional and personal life was simply amazing at least I couldn’t have be so much energetic and positive in those situations. Was great to have him around and had lots of fun in those KFC parties we had. Hope that within these two years some of your zeal and optimism has been transferred to me. Wish you luck at IIM(get in a good company and may be get me in J).

Uma Maheswar Vattikuti like his name is he also was different from the lot. A simple and easy going guy but really lazy. We always counted on him during our buffet lunches so that the money was not wasted. He has amazing levels of patience and takes things really easy never saw him in hurry or tensed. We all doubt he has a Girl Friend but never tells us anything about it. Dude we will get to know it one day. I have been begging him to give me quant lessons but he never would. I am going to bug you until you start teaching me anyway we are meeting every weekend and seriously when are you going to buy that car.

First Year at KIT

Finally I have made my self write about my college life again.


The reason I stopped is somewhat foolish but yes I missed those days and people so much that I almost got upset but as life moves on you move on too.
So here I was stuck in an Engineering college with a lot of new people whom I didnt know at all that time.

The first year in college was basically two things Ragging and thinking and devising ways to escape from it and as it was the first year we all were serious about studies (yes I know you guys are laughing) so we tried to devote some time to main reason for which we were there.

The first fun moment in first year that I still remember was our freshers party.

The tradition in KIT was that one week before freshers party was the toughest and same was the case with us but finally freshers came around and we danced our way to freedom from formals and wishing every senior good evening and good morning and became more friendly with each other as they called it in my college entered the family.


Then came the famous HARI OM after a night of flying high those who have done it know what I mean :).
The First year in college was a begining to many first ,
First time I felt really confident .
First time I felt I can be among the top students in academics.
First taste of stardom in college football team.
First time I got serious about a girl.
First time I saw a real fight.
and many others.
When I look back now it seems each and everyone of those firsts gave me an experience worth cherishing for life.
Cheers to the begining of college life.

Life is a journey :)

This post is dedicated to two of the most improtant people in my life Abhinav and Eshita.
My life in NCR is divided in two phased one while in Keane and one after that and if I am still sane then the only reason is these two wonderful friends.Thanks to them one more beautiful chapter has been added to my life which is right up there among the best moments of my life .
My life has been quite a journey with some memorable trips first there were Agra and Gwalior back in school. Then there were 2 awesome trips to Goa with college friends. Himachal with some old school friends and then Haridwar,Rishikesh and Mussorie.
To start with I never wanted to go on this trip has it not been Abhinav's last few days in Noida and insistence I would have missed some really valuable memories, People I met and friends I made.
Me being more on the introvert side was a bit apprehensive when I got to know that there people whom I have have met once or twice and others who were complete strangers.
To start with there were 8 of us who were going on the trip with plan to leave on saturday night camp at Rishikesh and return by Monday evening.
We started late on saturday night and as we had to pick Ankesh on our way there was not much scope for sleep and we started chatting. There are some people who spread so much warmth around that its not long before you start feeling comfortable with them. Luckily everyone in the trip more or less belonged to the same category. Specially Kushal and Sandy both of them with their exceptional sense of humour had us in fits of laughter every now and then had it not for them there would have been much less jokes and Laughter.
We picked Ankesh at around three in the morning recharged ourselves with some tea and snacks at his home and left for Haridwar. We reached Haridwar in the morning not letting lack of sleep dampen our spirits and we started for Har ki Pauri for a dip in the holy Ganges luckily for us it was the occasion of Mahakumbh that comes once in 12 years. Though there was a lot of rush, but it was totally worth. Firstly the cold water woke us up from the little bit slumber that remained after the long walk. After taking the dip and having something to eat (After lots and lots of struggle :)) and left for our further journey to Rishikesh for camping, trecking and rafting.
We reached our camping sight around 4 in the evening having some food we left for trekking to a nearby waterfall. Our guide told us that that the trek was just 1.5 Km. I wonder on what scale do people in hills measure distance I can bet my life that it was more than 1.5 Kms.
Agreed that the dull and sedatary life style has made me unfit but still it seemed to take like eternity to reach the waterfall but the view was mesmerising and made us forget the effort it took to reach there and a nice bath in the picturesque view made us fresh and lively again a some photographs and we walked back to the camp. Back at the camp we played some games, sat around bonfire, on the banks of the river and among warnings for punishment to anyone who slept everyone went to sleep.
Morning we left for the biggest draw of the trip, the conquest with the white water (Rafting), finally we were in the river fighting with waves living my dream. The open river gave a sense of freedom and power that i never felt before and it felt so good. Someone among us was thrown overboard to expell the fear of water.
Finally after working our way through some rapids, some body surfing we reached back on the shore and started planning for our return and unexpected turn of events made us divert our route and make us extend our trip by one day and we left for the queen of hills "Mussorie" reached there at night moved to our hotel took some rest and we had one big session fooling around and jokes, and were forced to take a walk at 3:30 in the morning may be it was beer may be something else but once we went out the view was mesmerising the lights of dehradun presented a view that cannot be expressed in words. After coming back everyone went to sleep got up in the morning and moved around in mussorie and later started our journey back.

On our way back someone suggested to visit a place called as robber's cave we went there and found out an amazing place hidden out of sight, we had to wade through waters, crawl through caves to reach a hidden water fall but had to leave soon as it was getting dark and the danger of nocturnal animals coming to say hi to us was increasing.
Finally we started back on our way and reached our respective places the next morning bringing end to a trip that will be remebered for my whole life because these were 3 most enjoyable days of my life.

The trip has ended but not the memories, the way people can make each other happy and special Abhi and Eshita you people are really lucky and feel so happy for you, the ease with which you can make friends, sometimes I wonder the way Kushal and Sandy kept their cool even when there were so many jokes going around and infact joined us and laughed at themselves at times I felt that the things were just too much specially in mussorie but u guys never let anything to spoil the mood.Abhishek for selflessly giving in to the trip heck he didnt even know not even asked what we were upto, but just jumped in without any hesitation thats what you call fun loving attitude, Ankesh though remained silent for most part but there were some really witty comments here and there, the little discussion that we had while returning gave a hint of the thinking and analytical brain he poccesses, Last but not the least Megha for being such a sport, saying yes to a trip with people she hardly new. Kudos to u guys for making this trip a wonderful experience.

As it with always nothing is perfect, same was with this trip but the fun and masti overshadows any of such things. With hopes of meeting again for another memorable trip.
Au revoir.