The Paradox Called life

There are many things that you never get time to think of and when you force yourself to think of them, you get more confused, unclear, and disoriented and yet enlightened at the same time.

Well that's something I realized recently or long before not even I am sure of.

I was just thinking how our lives have been. Living our lives in a way that others wanted us to live.As far as I am concerned I wanted to live my life in a particular fashion but here I am living a totally opposite life. A life that some people think is good enough, wish I could also share the same view. At times it feels that life is taking life out of you.

The more I want it to get better the worse it gets, the decisions that you make for the long term turn out to be the ones you regret most. At times things make you feel so small, the inability to make your life change makes you feel so vulnerable.

The question that crops up in mind is .. "Is your life really yours ? " and the answer to it has till now eluded me.

KIT Final Year - The end of reign

The years went by and the final year came and brought with it the carefree attitude we were the kings. With a job already secured there wasn't anything in the world that could hold us down. The parties never stopped and mood was always good. The time went by exams were just a formality everything went on smoothly, till the  few months of the college remained. The very thought of leaving my KIT family sent shivers to our spines , loosing friends who became your lifeline, who were always there when you needed them, it was dreadful even to think of what life was going to be without them. Finally the farewell party came to officially mark the end of our course, just a few exams and it would be good bye college life at least for that time. The party was fab and all the efforts all the determination of not to cry during farewell, were all in vain and once started tears were difficult to stop and I cried like a baby. The promises to stay in touch , of those yearly trip to Goa, of not letting anything to change our friendship were made and after that everything ended, people became involved with their jobs. I went back home to wait for my joining date and similarly others moved on with their lives, the phone calls became less frequent, the desire to meet diminished and all the effort to get a job in bangalore or get the joining in bangalore went in vain as finally I was asked to join Noida instead and I never knew how was it going to effect my life and future.
With the end of college the initiation to the real life became and we all became busy ... the first chance I got to visit bangalore was after 3 years in 2010 and really it was fun to be with the guys I loved so much and missed so much but as they say good times dont last long.

What happened with my job and professional life is a completely different story :)